I went to read some of my earlier posts. Earlier as in 2007 when i first started blogging here as 'maebemaebenot' and nobody gave a toss who i was. The things i wrote were a tad embarrasing at times. Funny how i didn't bother censoring myself then. Sad how much i have to keep to myself now. Some things never change though. From the time i graduated in 2006 and now 3 years on the only thing that is constant is work. The only distraction i need. It's kinda sad how when everything else in my life is shitty the best remedy is to bury myself in work. It's also nostalgic how much i have evolved as a person and how much my friends have changed alongside me. Our perspective and priorities in life change as we get older and gain more experience in life. My judgements are still clouded at times, buried in emotional depth. But luckily i have friends to set me straight and put it forth the way i would never have been able to do by myself. No man is an island, they say. It is true. As much as i would like to live this life flying solo, i am not capable of dealing with the things life throw my way by myself. I do need someone to tell me that "Look, you're going the wrong direction here. Focus. Try another route. You never know, it could be a better path to take." I am highly reliant on this kind of judgement. The community here on Xanga have evolved too. There seems to be a fine, grey, blurry line between online and real life. Some crossed in a good way, others bad. It comes to a point where some of you don't even know what is real anymore. Some people are real here as they see Xanga as the only place they can truly be themselves. Meanwhile, some people here create another life for themselves altogether. The life they couldn't have in reality. For these people the only life they managed to get out of themselves is one full of deceit. I say, shame on you. Then there is a wonderful majority of you, real as real can be both on and offline. I have had the pleasure of meeting a couple of you great people and i hope to be able to meet more some day. Do know that if in this lifetime i never get to meet any of you in person, i will be deeply saddened. I will be here to stay as long as you still want me to. I realised that in some ways i need Xanga to keep me in check of what i was, who i am and where i want to be. Back-reading on my old posts have done just that. It's sort of a timeline on my life journey albeit one that started a little late. I shall leave you now with a quote from one of my favourites: "Be yourself; everyone else is already taken." - Oscar Wilde | 
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